The only option I ever had.
Fight Back. HARD.
In 2018, I first discovered my abuse on Pornhub. This website actually refused to remove illegal date rape videos of me. Many of them were OBVIOUS that I was drugged and in some not even moving. I suffered extreme trauma resulting in struggles with memory recall and cognitive dissonance.
One of Many Sex Trafficking Partners of Mindgeek / Pornhub
From this point, I began struggling with my day to day life. I completely lost all self worth. I was self medicating with alcohol and drugs. I didn’t know why at the time, but apparently I was trying to cope with the memories of the things that happened. I was trying to repress the memories with sex, drugs, alcohol… anything.
And for a little while it worked.
By August, 2020 – I started putting things together, experiencing flashbacks and again discovered my abuse on Pornhub (which had grown to include illegal voyeurism content made over the last 2-3 years following the sexual assault in Las Vegas).
I did not know what to do at this point in my life. I became suicidal. I had tried literally everything. Nothing helped me. I wanted to die. The only thing that saved me probably is my children.
When I discovered this abuse in 2020, I reached out for help. I contacted law enforcement. I started seeing a psychiatrist. I started seeing a therapist. I did everything I could to try to get help.
THERE WAS NONE.
No one could even comprehend what I was going through.
In December of 2020, the article came out titled The Children of Pornhub in the New York Times. This was one of the first times that I realized I was not alone. I was not the only one experiencing this abuse. That article gave me hope.
In February 2021, I testified publicly before the Canadian Parliament Ethics Committee Hearing into Mindgeek / Pornhub’s practices.
This was the first time that I had ever spoken publicly about what happened.
By June/July 2022 I was in Washington, DC meeting with senators to advocate for legislative changes. I also spoke at a symposium with the National Center on Sexual Exploitation & Exodus Cry.
Around September of 2022, I was part of a worldwide gathering of image-based sexual abuse survivors in Los Angeles for a landscape report on how ro tackle IBSA.
October 2022 recipient of “Champion of Victims’ Rights recognition from Marsy’s Law.
November 2022 presenter at the National Center on Sexual Exploitation’s Coalition to End Sexual Exploitation
January 2023 Consulted with the White House Task Force to Address Online Harms and Harrassments
Febuary 2023 the Fight the New Drug Podcast in which I participated was published
March 2023 Filmed for a documentary (airing in November)
August 2023 Another BIG podcast…
More to come…
We won’t stop until there’s JUSTICE.
I said FIGHT.